I have a new appreciation for those crying, blubbering idiots on The Bachelor. You know the ones. The girls that cry so hard, they are snubbing in the limo. The ones that hyperventilate. The ones that forgo their limo ride home & exit in the back of the ambulance. THOSE girls. I could be one of them.
I’m not sure why I had only been open to Caucasians in the past. I guess because that’s what’s been modeled before me? But when I really thought about it, I came to realize the real reason why I was hesitant. The REAL reason….is other peoples perception. What will OTHER people think? Will it make people un-comfortable? Will the babies ask why he has brown skin or slanted eyes? Will my older family members (who were around before desegregation) be ashamed? Will people at church, whisper? Will Mom be worried that her friends might think bad of me? Will my fictitious children be treated differently by other people, because their parents ancestors originated from 2 different continents? All those scenarios plus more played through my mind.
And if I ever make it onto the real bachelor…I will be the one breathing in & out of the brown paper bag & mumbling…..but I LOVE him!